July 26th

My mother is the most strong, reliable, genuine, loyal, funny person I know. I have referred to her many times as a rock…my rock for that matter! Yes she is my mother but she is truly my best friend as I have grown up! She’s not the woman that wore a blue security shirt while I was in high school (yes my mother was campus security at the high school I went to); which was actually cool EXCEPT when little bitchy girls would use my mom as a way to piss me off (even more!) haha. She is now the person I go to with anything…questions, concerns, advice, anything!  I’ve told my girlfriends many times “my mom knows everything!” haha. 

Many of you are friends with Mom on facebook and follow her hysterical posts that she does daily! Its her mission to make people smile everyday…and we all love her for that oh so much!  But…like every human Mom also has “down days”…and July 26th is one of them! July 26th, 2004 Mom was diagnosis with Breast Cancer…

This pic was taken in early August..the day after her lumpectomy.

And this was a few chemo treatments in…my lil bald hero!!

I think back to this time in my life…I had NO idea of the significance when Mom told me she had cancer…she did it over the phone while I was driving somewhere after work. She wanted to wait to tell me in person but I was persistent in NOT waiting to hear the news. But now as I look back I really didn’t “get it”…I never thought my mom could die…heck I left for Hawaii with Yosh and friends a few days after that (but returned before she had her surgery!…I was there for that!) Of course I never “got it” until I myself was diagnosed…and then I apologized to my mother for not understanding like I should have. I remember sitting in Dr. Chan’s office and telling her that I was sorry…I just didn’t get it! I don’t think anyone really does until it effects them personally somehow!  Anniversaries of being diagnosed are sad days…it brings you back to such a sad time…and yesterday I didn’t remember this day…I’m a horrible daughter!

And ON TOP of that…July 26th, 2008 is the day that Mom lost her father!  This day I knew…this day I remembered…and its just so weird that he passed away on the same day just 4 years later. 

This was taken in December 2007…6 months before he passed and it was the very last time I got to see my Grandpa!

This pic was taken the day of Grandpa’s funeral in July 2008 at the Foxford cemetery…!  See even in this picture Mom was being the strong rock for her sisters and Mother…the rock that SOOO many of us know!

So obviously Mom was down yesterday…and I feel horrible since I wasn’t there for her like she would have been for me! Instead of showing her some empathy, I got irritated with her over stupid antibiotics going in the fridge! Of course I texted and apologized to her…but Mom I’m sorry again!  We will have a nice relaxing girls day next Tuesday at Glen Ivy…and I’ll be your DD and show you some empathy heehee.  Love you Mom!!