Many many many years ago, actually a week after my brother was killed 15 years ago, I told my mother that someday I would have at LEAST 3 kids when I was grown up. I never wanted to leave one to be alone! The pain I was feeling of going from having a sibling to being an only child was horrible. And at that stage in my life I was only thinking of the present…like holidays and our current situation. It took a few years for the real pain to set in…to realize that it was all up to me to take care of my parents when they grew old (and annoying jk heehee)…but it was only me. Yes my kids wouldn’t have an uncle or aunt on my side. They would have no first cousins on the Gallagher side. My kids would be my parents ONLY grandchildren. Sad.
Our holidays grew lonely as a family of 3. Very lonely. With my extended family being so far away, we spent a lot of time as just me and my parents. Then I met Yosh and was welcomed into his family with open arms. I knew that when we started having children that we’d make ourselves a FAMILY. So that one day, when Yosh and I grew old we’d have lots of grandchildren and great-grandchildren running around. I didn’t want small, quiet holidays. I wanted lots of family, lots of love surrounding us!
So when we had Owen I knew what love and family was. When I was diagnosed with cancer and the threat of never having my own children again was real I was very sad. But had to look at life in a different light and be thankful. So when we found out we were having a second child and it was a little lady we were overcome with joy! Our dream of creating OUR family was really happening.
And now…2 years after our daughter, we are VERY VERY happy to announce that MY dream is coming true…
Baby #3 is due in September!
And it seemed only fitting that I found out I was pregnant while on a mini vacation in Washington visiting my best friend. I have NEVER found out I was expecting while home.
I was in New York with Owen, St. Thomas for Ella and Washington for Baby3.
And a few people have had the balls to ask but YES we WERE trying for this baby. It was, in NO way an “Oops” or mistake. I teach Health…no such thing as an “oops”! haha
I have to say though that this pregnancy has been different in EVERY way imaginable. I know everyone is paranoid with miscarriages and bad things happening BUT I had this horrible feeling that I was playing with fate…that having a 3rd was pushing my luck (which as we all know luck is NEVER in my favor it seems). So we waited to tell. Well waited for some people. Since we were trying a few of my closest girlfriends KNEW…and were texting the day my period was due hahaha. But I didn’t mind telling a few…in case I needed support for the unexpected down the road.
We wanted to wait tell Owen and Ella. Even though Owen was making comments to me like “Mom…it looks like there is a baby in your belly….but I know there isn’t. Not yeeeettttt!”. yeah I should have been butt hurt that he was calling me fat BUT I knew I was bloating big time! The second we conceived I swear I gained 5-7lbs. It was weird. But we wanted to make sure everything looked healthy before explaining to my sensitive boy something different. I would HATE to have to explain to him that a baby wasn’t in my belly after all. He's an emotional boy and I didn’t want to put him through the unnecessary.
So we saw our new Ob/Gyn around week 8-9 and got a good look at our tiny shrimp baby. Heart beat was 180…fast as heck! And watched as it swam and moved all around. It was a breath of fresh air seeing the healthy little heart. So we went to one of our favs for lunch. And looked at the picture over and over again.
We came home and told the kids. We videotaped it and I’m SOOOO happy we did.
I found this cute little idea on pinterest. Since Owen is getting better at reading he was so excited to try and figure it all out.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E0hjV5fYkY8
(hope this link works to view the video)
It took him a few to understand what the card was trying to tell him…on the video I swear you can see his little brain working. I had tears in my eyes explaining it to him. Its a weird feeling having ANOTHER child. I feel that it puts me farther away from my oldest…I know its a weird feeling. I know its not true. I know he is just as close to me as ever BUT sometimes I feel that Ella makes him feel that way and now this one will too. Hes the best child…he started crying and I was fearful that he was sad (you know you have all seen those videos on fb of kids crying about having more siblings)…but no. He reassured me that he was “happy crying”. *sniff sniff* He was so happy to be a “Five Family” like some of our friends are.
And Ella’s reaction…haha She thinks that a baby is in her belly. The video makes you realize just HOW much Ella has NO clue about whats going on. And thats ok. She’ll figure it out soon enough. She is one I’m a little nervous about actually. We visited a friend who recently had a baby…she wanted to hold him, which was good BUT then she found a doll bottle and curled up in my lap and told me she was a baby! She might not be to thrilled about this little addition.
We explained to Owen that we were keeping the baby a secret for a few more weeks and we couldn’t tell our friends. I’m SHOCKED that my kid kept the secret!! We were waiting some time (but as the time went on more and more of our friends were either figuring it out OR I was telling them). Friends started texting me about my lack of alcohol pics on social media haha never realized people knew I was such a lush!…other friends were making comments about my lack of activity logs on mapmyrun. And I know you can continue working out like before you are pregnant BUT I have been sick this pregnancy. Like morning sickness means nothing when its morning, noon and night!!! So between puking and the lack of energy I haven’t been working out like I usually do.
But “the secret” is now out! Yosh wanted to wait to tell his polo girls…he has retired from coaching and baby 3 is a huge reason. Now I’m blogging about that later…but by NO means am making him step down…this is a decision he has made on his own!! But more on that later. That night I let the world know…
I’m now 13 weeks prego…excited for my 2nd trimester to begin so I can stop puking and start enjoying food like pregnant people are suppose to!
I wanted to share my total FAIL. I took pictures with the chalkboards in my backyard one evening because I was too lazy to actually GO somewhere to take them. I love them…Ella’s expressions are so funny. But does anyone notice anything wrong???
#yougest
DAMNIT! Thank God Bernie noticed my idiot move…I swear I know how to spell…sometimes!
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