Park Time

It seems like Owen and I have been spending more and more evenings alone lately…but girls water polo season is coming to an end…with just CIF left to go and  I’m happy to say Thank God its almost done! I love my Owen time BUT I’m sad when Owen asks me EVERY day where Daddy is…and I always have to say Coaching.  These past few weeks I’ve lived the “single mom” life…having to bring Owen EVERYWHERE by myself. Physical Therapy appts, Doctor appts, grocery shopping, everywhere. Which I don’t mind, but sometimes I feel bad lugging him around everywhere and all he’s begging is for me to bring him home to play with his own toys!

Today since it was 82 degrees in February I couldn’t NOT bring Owen to the park after picking him up at Marthas. Which btw I have some pics of Owen at his daycare…

Martha posted these on fb for all us Mommies to see…I just LOVE seeing my lil man sooo happy while he’s there!! Super cute!

Harada Park…

My “baby” was such a “big boy” today at the park…he didn’t make me follow him around (as much). He got up on the big kid playground without any help and just did his own thing. I was the idiot mom standing around…following him like a lil puppy…just in case he needed his mommy! haha Guess I’ll have to start letting go right?!? haha Guess its time to turn into one of those moms that just sits on the benches and doesn’t watch their child…YEAH RIGHT. haha I hate those moms…b/c their kids are the bad ones bumping into the little kids, running backwards up slides…grrrr haha

But todays trip to the park was kinda sad as well…I got a little emotional watching Owen….he was so fascinated with the skatepark!
Why would this make me sad…well it just made me think of how much he would have made his Uncle Paul so proud. Owen just LOVES watching all the kids skateboard!  I couldn’t keep him away from the gates…he was mesmerized by all the activity goin’ on in there….Paul would have loved to be the one to have shown Owen how to get on a board! I just imagined what it would have been like to get to go to Harada park one day with Uncle Paul and Owen…in his little helmet…and Paul being there to hold his hands….

Then it was like Paul was there…INSIDE Owen!! I look over at him and he starts running down the grass hill and throwing himself on the floor…then looking at me and laughing. Paul used to do that!! Paul always wanted to be a stuntman…and would always be falling around the place for the entertainment of others…and watching Owen do that just made me laugh out loud! Paul is present…even IN Owen! And I love seeing that my brother is around us…

Its odd how sometimes the most common, random things can bring on such sadness!! There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about my brother…and not a day that goes by that I still get a bit angry that Owen doesn’t get the chance to meet him…but someday I’ll get to tell Owen all about his Uncle Paul. Someday when I know Owen will understand…and he happy that sometimes he reminds me so much of him!!