Life

I have totally been neglecting my blog…and sorta on purpose. I just wasn’t “feelin” it lately. I wanted to write and share but just didn’t have the motivation to sit down and type my feelings out.  So much on my mind, so much going on…and I’d tell myself I’ll sit and write, post some pictures of my handsome boys when life calms down a bit…buuuut I think if I waited for that I’d never get to update this thing. But tonight I had the feeling…

We lost a friend a few weeks ago. His name was Jason Moscowitz…37 year old husband with 3 young daughters. He was one of the assistant principals at Roosevelt my very first year teaching (in 2007)…and he was the type of guy that always made you feel special and welcome. Yosh and Jason hit it off and developed a friendship…the type of friendship that you didn’t talk all the time, but when you did it was totally cool. Anyway…Jason left CNUSD to go to Lake Elsinore to be a principal in 2008…and recently this summer he was promoted to a director position with Hemet School District…he was movin’ up in the world and everyone in CNUSD was so proud of him! He was that kinda guy that was on his way up in the education field…and quick. I truly believed he was going to be the youngest ever Superintendent in California in no time!  But that belief was cut short when he was killed in a car accident just outside of West Valley High School on Oct. 27th. (Read about it here and here.)  It came as such a shock to EVERYONE. He was liked/loved by so so so many. It was just so sad. A tragic accident that NO one saw coming. I was talking with one of our campus security guards the morning we found at…how life is just so crazy. And the fact that it feels like as soon as you think you have life under control…God can oh so quickly put things back into perspective. Time can be so short and taken in an instant.  I’d say that most teachers on our campus went home and hugged their children, kissed their spouses, or called their parents that evening…its scary to think how precious life is!! I feel that God is constantly sending me these reminders. Started when I was 17…high on life, getting ready for prom and graduation and I tragically lost my brother…BOOM!! …then years later, life was getting back to normal, I was in college, met the man of my dreams and BOOM again, my mother was diagnosed with Breast Cancer. More years pas…life is amazing, I’m married, started my career, had my first child…life couldn’t get any greater…and BOOOOOOM…I’m diagnosed with Hodgkins Lymphoma! As soon as I’m getting comfortable, He throws a curve ball!  Thank you God for constantly not letting me get too used to things…always making me appreciate what I have, the relationships I cherish and continue to love those around me….but seriously…can be take it down a notch?!? I promise I cherish life…and don’t need any more drastic reminders Thank You!

So THIS is just a reminder to my friends and family…please remember how precious our time here on Earth is! You can never hug too often. You can never tell your children you love them TOO much! You just never know…ya know?!?

So Yosh has been feeling down about Jason and Owen woke up one morning and totally made his day by tellling Yosh “Daddy, I wanna dress like you”…so we made it happen! Thank God the hubs is TOTALLY ok with doing the twinsie thing!!
Aren’t they freakin’ adorable though?!? I love these two boys more than life itself!

So on top of the fact we’ve been pretty shook up about Jason passing and I’m super bummed that my foot is still causing me issues, and THEN I had the nastiest flu ever last week…I think that is why I have been so unmotivated to write as well. Its one thing on top of another…I’m depressed that it feels like I’m falling apart! I seriously laid in bed…and threw myself the biggest pity party…all alone! I haven’t been that sick ever…don’t worry I’ll spare you all the details but it was the quickest 7lbs I’ve ever lost! (which is all back now Thank you very much) But as I laid there I thought…gosh…how did I EVER get through being this sick when I was going through chemo. How did I live through it…and care for a baby at the same time!! I don’t think I could do it again…that’s forsure! The flu kept the Souza family isolated for a while…as some of my friends were having babies, my mother-in-law was celebrating her 69th birthday…we stayed home…and tried keeping our germs to ourselves!  Sick family time…doesn’t get any better than that! haha

Once we were all better we headed to Redlands to spend some time with Mya and Papa for Mya’s birthday.

How could you not kiss and love this little person?!?
When we finally made it over to see Mya for her birthday, Owen told me he wanted to bring her a green & yellow balloon…I thought it was so cute and oddly specific I went and got her the balloons…he was thrilled with himself!!! Totally cute!

 

Life can be so up and then so down…but that’s life right?!? Looking forward to having next week off work…spending it with family and friends…and hopefully resting my foot so I’m not wearing this “fashionable” boot in Ireland in December!

Now go kiss someone and tell them you love them!!! Night.